I have learned that I need to take deep breaths and remember that no matter how frustrated or upset I may be, I have a lot of people looking at me to see how I react to all this. So, being under a microscope, I have been able to put on a happy face at least 75% of the time, thank goodness. Yes, I have had a few "breakdowns", but I know that we will see the other side of this. Maybe not tomorrow or the next day, but in God's perfect timing, we will.
In the light of all our troubles at home, we witnessed a horrible occurrence last night. Just a normal Prayer Meeting and Patch the Pirate Club meeting, right? Wrong. We made it through our hour of singing, character lessons, Bible verse learning, and skit practicing, all the while hearing a strange thud on the ceiling every 5 minutes or so. We are in the basement beneath the sanctuary and the adults prayer meeting is held upstairs about 50 feet away. So, we heard the loud bangs, but couldn't figure out who could possibly be up there! We knew that the youth group was next door, so it wasn't them... Sadly enough, we joked up the roof falling in because there has been so much of it around CNY in the last few weeks. Not funny.
At 8pm, I left Jeff to wait with the kids for their parents, and I went across the hall to get Audree in her jammies in the nursery. I chatted with the nursery worker about how much she is talking, blah, blah, blah... As I was having a conversation with Audree, I heard a little commotion in the hallway, and then my pastor and Jeff burst into the nursery yelling that we needed to get out of the basement, NOW.
I started to panic a little, but thankfully quickly grabbed Audree and the diaper bag and dashed out. Her pajama top sitting on the changing table, and her wet cloth diaper sitting in a bag in the sink. I didn't have my coat or Audree's, and I had no idea where Alex was.
Thankfully, as we were running down the hall, an older lady assured us that Alex was all ready outside and my pastor grabbed our coats out of the other room. By the time we got outside, I still had no idea what was going on. Fire? A terrorist attack? I can be pretty dramatic, you know...
Nope, those sounds we heard? They were large chunks of ceiling falling and thudding against the sanctuary floor. I guess they noticed a crack in the ceiling a couple of days ago and were actually trying to decide how to handle it. I still wish someone had let us know what they were discussing because we might have realized what the noise was and not listened to it for 45 minutes!
So, we stood in the parking lot as the fire department came, the men flashed lights up on the roof trying to see anything, and those left of us, stood in a circle and prayed. Honestly, I didn't think it would go down. Audree was getting tired and it was a school night. So, slowly, most of the families trickled out, and while we were driving home, I got the phone call from a friend who lives close to the church, the roof had caved in. About twenty minutes after we got out, it was gone.
I felt a lot of mixed emotions. The roof was gone? How bad was it? Did we almost die? Needless to say, I did not get a lot of sleep last night. Dreamed over and over again about running out of the church, trying to find the kids, it was ugly.
Then I realized...it is just a building. All 40 people who were there last night, including about two dozen teens, children, and toddlers, are all safe. Not one scratch. Is it scary to think about being trapped in the basement? Yes, but we aren't. I am home, sitting on my computer blogging my feelings and fears.
The insurance is covering everything. We will rebuild. Until then, we have the old building across the parking lot to worship in. I praise the Lord for his grace and I know that our children will be talking about this horrific night for years to come.
Here is the extent of the damage. The force of the collapse blew the side of the church off.
See that bottom right window? That's where the Patch kids and I were. *Shudder*
The babies were across the hall on the far side of the church.
This is what was happening this afternoon. The entire sanctuary and everything underneath was a complete loss. I am still praying that we will be able to use the back part of the building for nursery and Patch and Sunday schools.
A song that has been playing a lot in our house lately is "Praise you in this Storm" by Casting Crowns. God has a plan, and until then, it will rain, and we will praise Him.
Psalm 89:2, 8
I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself... O LORD God Almighty, who is like you? You are mighty, O LORD, and your faithfulness surrounds you.
I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself... O LORD God Almighty, who is like you? You are mighty, O LORD, and your faithfulness surrounds you.